Going through the same routine daily,
thinking about it over and over......
at time the mind starts to keep asking why?
Why does it have to endure all the pain where we never need.
Why does it have to be the way we actually dislike?
Searching through what we want and fall into the curious place.
Perhaps we are not ready to give up nor were we to accept it glad fully..
Xian 1.32AM
Wednesday 21 December 2011
Tuesday 13 December 2011
A new journey.
Reminiscing the day where we lunch our foot into the school gate.
Those fears surged up to us wandering when it will be over.
Passing those schools days sadden us when it is learned that it time.
Time flies just as people ages but something never change as we know
FRIENDSHIP are those valuable things leaving behind.
Clearly we still asked our self and ask aren't we the one hoping to
step out from the school as fast as we can?
Things seems to contradict us and now we ask why so fast?
Those days were where we grew and thanks because of you all
things were make done easier going through thin and thick.
Perhaps its time to leave but those memories are set to become part of us.
Found memories may it allow to be with us and discard those bad ones.
Some people come into our lives and quickly go.Some stay for a while and
leave footprints on our hearts.And for us we are never,ever the same.
Nice to have it all to sum up my school day life.
Lets begin our new journey and voyage.
May we sail to the unlimited.
Xian,2.35PM
Those fears surged up to us wandering when it will be over.
Passing those schools days sadden us when it is learned that it time.
Time flies just as people ages but something never change as we know
FRIENDSHIP are those valuable things leaving behind.
Clearly we still asked our self and ask aren't we the one hoping to
step out from the school as fast as we can?
Things seems to contradict us and now we ask why so fast?
Those days were where we grew and thanks because of you all
things were make done easier going through thin and thick.
Perhaps its time to leave but those memories are set to become part of us.
Found memories may it allow to be with us and discard those bad ones.
Some people come into our lives and quickly go.Some stay for a while and
leave footprints on our hearts.And for us we are never,ever the same.
Nice to have it all to sum up my school day life.
Lets begin our new journey and voyage.
May we sail to the unlimited.
Wednesday 2 November 2011
只不过要这些。
从来不敢署望可以得到什么，
更不敢希望得到。
不过那小小的一个要求却那么难。
想要得只不过那么简单，
无奈的，总给我一次又一次的挫折感。
开始怀疑自己的能力，
当初的毅力少了一半，
不想再从来了，就任由命运的决定吧。
雨过天晴或许会好了一点，
但，留下的那个遗憾永远无法给忘了。
Xian,5.53PM
更不敢希望得到。
不过那小小的一个要求却那么难。
想要得只不过那么简单，
无奈的，总给我一次又一次的挫折感。
开始怀疑自己的能力，
当初的毅力少了一半，
不想再从来了，就任由命运的决定吧。
雨过天晴或许会好了一点，
但，留下的那个遗憾永远无法给忘了。
Xian,5.53PM
Friday 7 October 2011
Thursday 29 September 2011
Memories.
Wandering around without any direction.
Thought I once was the dominant
perhaps overrated myself....
when things started to change drastically.....
to admit I was caught unaware
and things rushed through
Only to leave my with scars and regrets.
Xian,5.50PM
Thought I once was the dominant
perhaps overrated myself....
when things started to change drastically.....
to admit I was caught unaware
and things rushed through
Only to leave my with scars and regrets.
Xian,5.50PM
Saturday 30 July 2011
Football Competition.
A 2 day football competition was held at our school.
And I was one of them making a comeback from a long lay off.
Injuries had really taken toll of me and this time hope that its injury free.
Draw into Groub B under the name Upper 6.
Hope were high for us to ease through the next round
perhaps by judging the players we had.
Ee Heong,Kah Kim,Aik Harn,Nerry are those well known ones.
The first match we managed to get off a flying start with a 2-1 victory,
However the match was stop for a while due to some argument but all when well later.
The nest match,we were aiming for a 1-1 draw only to concede it in the last minute!!!!!
Frustration certainly had our concentration leap of and this was proven in the next round.
A goal that was never going to be a goal was call goal and this certainly spice the game up.
Playing rough was the way we can only manged to lead 2-1.
Things seems well and nice but a lapse in concentration and we lost 4-3.
lost and that means we are out.
Bad refereeing does contribute to our downfall.
However thats all the past.
Thanks guys, you all were great and perhaps my last game.
Appreciate those time where we fight together.
Escaping from a group of defenders.
And to the closest.......the ball hit the bar!!!Arghh
Xian,5.23PM
And I was one of them making a comeback from a long lay off.
Injuries had really taken toll of me and this time hope that its injury free.
Draw into Groub B under the name Upper 6.
Hope were high for us to ease through the next round
perhaps by judging the players we had.
Ee Heong,Kah Kim,Aik Harn,Nerry are those well known ones.
The first match we managed to get off a flying start with a 2-1 victory,
However the match was stop for a while due to some argument but all when well later.
The nest match,we were aiming for a 1-1 draw only to concede it in the last minute!!!!!
Frustration certainly had our concentration leap of and this was proven in the next round.
A goal that was never going to be a goal was call goal and this certainly spice the game up.
Playing rough was the way we can only manged to lead 2-1.
Things seems well and nice but a lapse in concentration and we lost 4-3.
lost and that means we are out.
Bad refereeing does contribute to our downfall.
However thats all the past.
Thanks guys, you all were great and perhaps my last game.
Appreciate those time where we fight together.
One of the best picture of the tournament.On a counter attack.
Xian,5.23PM
Thursday 21 July 2011
St John Flag day(sat and Sun)
The past Saturday and Sunday was what an annual St John Flag day.
Woke up late on both days...argh.....had to rush there like mad.
As expected all the members had went out to collect donations.
Had my breakfast shortly after meeting up with my group at Georgetown.
After breakfast we are then off the various places to get as much donation as we can.
What I would like to share was the attitude we encounter during the whole journey.
Some were generous and friendly when some even folk out as much as RM50!!!!
So a small amount and would say that it is quite a large amount.
I would like to admit that this was the first time we receive that large sum.
As we continue our journey the humid did really take toll of us.
Just as we were to go hydration a owner of a coffe shop gave us some free drink.
A 100 plus drikj was certainly a refreshing one.
After that she gave each of us 20 cent.
The amount was not what I was to discuss but the kindness.
Afther that,as time goes past the donors are lesser and lesser.
Some other districts memebers had took from them.
After that we return to the Hq to return our donation box.
A tired but meaningful day.
Xian,6.19PM.
Woke up late on both days...argh.....had to rush there like mad.
As expected all the members had went out to collect donations.
Had my breakfast shortly after meeting up with my group at Georgetown.
After breakfast we are then off the various places to get as much donation as we can.
What I would like to share was the attitude we encounter during the whole journey.
Some were generous and friendly when some even folk out as much as RM50!!!!
So a small amount and would say that it is quite a large amount.
I would like to admit that this was the first time we receive that large sum.
As we continue our journey the humid did really take toll of us.
Just as we were to go hydration a owner of a coffe shop gave us some free drink.
A 100 plus drikj was certainly a refreshing one.
After that she gave each of us 20 cent.
The amount was not what I was to discuss but the kindness.
Afther that,as time goes past the donors are lesser and lesser.
Some other districts memebers had took from them.
After that we return to the Hq to return our donation box.
A tired but meaningful day.
Xian,6.19PM.
Saturday 2 July 2011
Larian 1 Murid 1 sukan.
Out of the sudden that it is announced without period notice
that all school nationwide are required to take part in this event.
Ok...fine about that but was it is about?
Just wanting a healthier Malaysian don't require this I think.
Anyway....perhaps they believe that this reduces Obesity I think.
Ah....just leave that topic aside first as it won't bring me anywhere.
First we gathered at the school handball court celebrating our 6th form success....
after that It time to run.
Started around 10 and ended around 10.10.am.
Huh....rather fast and indeed it was...just a mere 1.5Km and what is it compared to
running in the hold football field chasing the ball....haha.
After that we took a short break as we wait patiently for the lucky numbers to be called
but what we expected was not there at all.
Just to keep up with the fun and not to be bored we started all the games.....
I mean those childish things and seriously it was the forst time our class is doing this....lol.
Around 12.20 only did we stop fooling around and its time to go home!!
I would conclude that it was rather an unproductive day in terms that we know
nothing about the purpose they did thid run....personal glory i guess.=(
Xian,6.04PM
that all school nationwide are required to take part in this event.
Ok...fine about that but was it is about?
Just wanting a healthier Malaysian don't require this I think.
Anyway....perhaps they believe that this reduces Obesity I think.
Ah....just leave that topic aside first as it won't bring me anywhere.
First we gathered at the school handball court celebrating our 6th form success....
after that It time to run.
Started around 10 and ended around 10.10.am.
Huh....rather fast and indeed it was...just a mere 1.5Km and what is it compared to
running in the hold football field chasing the ball....haha.
After that we took a short break as we wait patiently for the lucky numbers to be called
but what we expected was not there at all.
Just to keep up with the fun and not to be bored we started all the games.....
I mean those childish things and seriously it was the forst time our class is doing this....lol.
Around 12.20 only did we stop fooling around and its time to go home!!
I would conclude that it was rather an unproductive day in terms that we know
nothing about the purpose they did thid run....personal glory i guess.=(
Xian,6.04PM
Saturday 25 June 2011
伤感的散文
抬起头,泪流下
时光已逝永不回
往事只能回忆
忆童年时竹马青梅
两小无猜日夜相随
春风又吹红了花蕊
你已经也添了新岁
……
当记忆的齿轮无意中辗过我们，疼痛而又寂寞难耐。心脏像一颗硕大的草莓，不断渗出鲜红的汁液，感谢它们支撑着我从容地数清身
上的每一处伤痕，然后看着这些伤口愈合或者溃烂。
曾经，哭着，摔坏心爱的玩具；笑着，任孤单在黑暗中肆意妖娆。
无法确定内心深处真实的感受，惟有一丝不为人知的酸楚在心头轻轻滑过。
看不见的就是梦寐，听不见的就是欺骗吗？
谁家今夜扁舟子，何处相思无月明？来世似流水不可待，
往事如落花不可追，淡淡的半个月亮，照不亮通往家乡的小道，
我只好伸出手去触碰天空中那悬而未决的忧伤。 依稀记得初次离家时莫名的心慌，家的轮廓越来越远，
熟悉的一切都开始变得模糊。
只身一人面对一个全然陌生的城市，像无意落入大海中的一滴雨水，
茫然失措，找不到自己。
但如今我一样适应了一个人的生活，学会了自己走路思考，
学会了自己照顾自己，学会了不在别人的庇护下安静地书写自己的故事。
也许这并不是我本意抑或是我面对现状的无奈选择，
可无论怎样我现在很快乐。但我真的快乐吗？ 或许人就是这样复杂，复杂到连自己有时也感到陌生，
那是一种可怕加上绝望的感觉，令人窒息。就像有的人一边在怀念曾经白衣飘飘的年代，
一边却与昔日的好友形同陌路自己亦昨是而今非。
不想去证实什么，也无法去证实什么。有一种力量很强大，
强到我们可以不动声色地去忘记曾经如何也不愿丢弃的人，
曾经如何也不愿遗忘的事。
我们在时光的破碎机里开始变得面目全非，
是我们自己亲手残忍地搅碎了韶华，埋葬了青春，
然后在繁华落尽、青春散场之时才发现眼角滑落的泪却浸湿了回忆。
年华的蒸腾，留下的只有斑驳的印记，但提醒我们曾经来过。 皑皑岁月里埋藏的往事会在一夜之间抽丝发芽，
唤醒她的是王子深情的一吻吗？童话的纯真像一抹淡淡的粉色轻轻地撒在岁月的风中，
那时的天空，片片寂寞的湛蓝，渗出清亮的雨滴，然后凝固成希望的形状，
然而一切都跟不上长大的脚步，流光容易把人抛，红了樱桃，绿了芭蕉。
因为我们不是彼得潘，我们无法拒绝成长。当我们不再年轻时，
有些事情开始清楚，人世间的痛苦莫过于蔓珠沙华的命运，
花开时花与叶却让人心酸的被生死轮回所阻隔，从此相见不如怀念。
当灵魂度过忘川，便遗忘曾经的一切，把美丽留在了彼岸，开成妖艳诡异的花，
成为黄泉路上唯一的风景。从此明白没有一个人会一直为
另一个人在深夜昏黄的路灯下徘徊，没有不老的传说，没有不死的灵魂，
有的只是花叶生生相错的惋惜，有的只是苏州湖面上不散的烟雾，
有的只是内心深处对生活对命运对未来不曾妥协过的坚持。 有人说过世界是虚幻的，我们活在彼此的心里。不管是活的人，抑或是死者。 当一切结束的时候，我们该何去何从？也许依然向往彼岸的风景，
然后一路走一路丢下，只剩下墓地里盛开的蔓珠沙华依旧微笑着流泪……
Xian,6.37PM
Thursday 16 June 2011
Same outcome.
Monday was the day where MUET(Malaysia University English Test) result is released.
Without period notice I receive a shock upon arriving at the school.
Last time I obtained a Band 4 and after that I was really determined to get the better.
Friends were busy SMS-ing to obtain the latest news thus stirring up a tense ambiance.
Hate to admit it but I was one of them fearing that I may not get a better Band but instead to the worst.
Doubt were all around my head only to be given hope when encouragement poured in.
By 10am the official result was sent to our school and is upon to be pasted up.
Heart was popping vigorously against my rib cage as a crowd was form in just seconds after being pasted.
One by one faces of joy and agony appeared.
Few of us who took up the challenge for the better result one by one waited patiently.
Nerve was surging high up as thoughts of the worst keep coming across my vulnerable mind..
In the end the crowd was lesser and I was our time to accept the fact.
Some of my friends obtain Band 5 and certainly scream of joy was heard.
I walk calmly to face the result........and..........
too bad a high Band 4(215/300) was the best I could get.
Perhaps My speaking marks was high but not high enough for the lucrative Band 5.
Encouragement and console was soon pouring in to cheer me up.
Soon, I was over it as after all it wasn't that bad and moreover,its a huge improvement.
Perhaps luck wasn't on my side to obtain the Band 5 and somehow and thing to be regret......
for the rest of the life.
Taking the test once more never come across my mind anymore.
Perhaps the fate is there then accept it and move forward.
Lastly,thanks Few Wen,Teik Ming and Poh Lin for your concern.
Thanks a million and congratulations to you guys for gaining the Bands you people had hope for.
Xian,6.38PM
Without period notice I receive a shock upon arriving at the school.
Last time I obtained a Band 4 and after that I was really determined to get the better.
Friends were busy SMS-ing to obtain the latest news thus stirring up a tense ambiance.
Hate to admit it but I was one of them fearing that I may not get a better Band but instead to the worst.
Doubt were all around my head only to be given hope when encouragement poured in.
By 10am the official result was sent to our school and is upon to be pasted up.
Heart was popping vigorously against my rib cage as a crowd was form in just seconds after being pasted.
One by one faces of joy and agony appeared.
Few of us who took up the challenge for the better result one by one waited patiently.
Nerve was surging high up as thoughts of the worst keep coming across my vulnerable mind..
In the end the crowd was lesser and I was our time to accept the fact.
Some of my friends obtain Band 5 and certainly scream of joy was heard.
I walk calmly to face the result........and..........
too bad a high Band 4(215/300) was the best I could get.
Perhaps My speaking marks was high but not high enough for the lucrative Band 5.
Encouragement and console was soon pouring in to cheer me up.
Soon, I was over it as after all it wasn't that bad and moreover,its a huge improvement.
Perhaps luck wasn't on my side to obtain the Band 5 and somehow and thing to be regret......
for the rest of the life.
Taking the test once more never come across my mind anymore.
Perhaps the fate is there then accept it and move forward.
Lastly,thanks Few Wen,Teik Ming and Poh Lin for your concern.
Thanks a million and congratulations to you guys for gaining the Bands you people had hope for.
Xian,6.38PM
Thursday 9 June 2011
Defeat.
There is no such thing such as failure unless we accept it such as giving it up and call it quit.
This is what happens to the majority of the people when the sailing gets tough and rough.
Not so to the iron-willed ,for they know that failure is just merely a temporary defeat.
A time to draw deeper from the well of life,gather more strength and the force needed
to overcome the problem of life and forge ahead with new vigor.
There is no failure for a man whose spirit is unconquerable.
As long as there is life there remains the opportunity to gain success.
The larger our losses the larger we must develop our manhood to tower above them.
It is never really a question of the quantity of things that we lose outside of us.
The thing that really counts is,how much is there left inside of us after losing the thing outside us?
Have we kept the spirit intact in our heart?Is it undaunted?
Do we still have the iron will to overcome it once again?
Do we still have the burning desire to conquer the world that was once ours?
As long as we have the desire...nothing will be impossible.
The man that gives up easily is not likely to amount much,even if he had everything.
Quitters never win!!Its not the falling that are tragic but in our falling we fail to get up is disastrous.
Once I remembered asking the boy how you skate that well huh??
An answer was told that embarrass me:Get up every time you fall!!"
There is no defeat,no failure,for a man who knows self.
Who knows that within him is the power sufficient to overcome the trips,the falls,the hardship,
the disappointment,the obstacle and roadblocks which precede every great victory!!
Specailly dedicated to Bro and S.kher.=)
Xian 3.08PM
This is what happens to the majority of the people when the sailing gets tough and rough.
Not so to the iron-willed ,for they know that failure is just merely a temporary defeat.
A time to draw deeper from the well of life,gather more strength and the force needed
to overcome the problem of life and forge ahead with new vigor.
There is no failure for a man whose spirit is unconquerable.
As long as there is life there remains the opportunity to gain success.
The larger our losses the larger we must develop our manhood to tower above them.
It is never really a question of the quantity of things that we lose outside of us.
The thing that really counts is,how much is there left inside of us after losing the thing outside us?
Have we kept the spirit intact in our heart?Is it undaunted?
Do we still have the iron will to overcome it once again?
Do we still have the burning desire to conquer the world that was once ours?
As long as we have the desire...nothing will be impossible.
The man that gives up easily is not likely to amount much,even if he had everything.
Quitters never win!!Its not the falling that are tragic but in our falling we fail to get up is disastrous.
Once I remembered asking the boy how you skate that well huh??
An answer was told that embarrass me:Get up every time you fall!!"
There is no defeat,no failure,for a man who knows self.
Who knows that within him is the power sufficient to overcome the trips,the falls,the hardship,
the disappointment,the obstacle and roadblocks which precede every great victory!!
Specailly dedicated to Bro and S.kher.=)
Xian 3.08PM
Saturday 4 June 2011
Sunday 29 May 2011
MSSM 2011
Tomorrow will be the day where all contingents from Malaysia will
come to Penang competing for the MSSM 2011 held at Tanjung Bunga Beach hotel.
Since to introduction of chess into the calender of MSSM penang will be the host for the first time.
Perhaps because of this I wanted to be part of this memorable event.
However days before the final round of MSSPP only did I get to know that what was badly wanted by me
is now all end and over.The cruel blow delivered was rather devastating but what more can I do
besides picking up myself bracing for further challenge.
To blame it on the MSSM committee or any affiliates can just merely lessen your anger but what more than that?
What is deem to be to be fix is fix and no hopes of overturning the decision.Anyway the worst part was that why were we told to pay the MSSM fees where we are not eligible to play.............having a feeling that its a day light robbery!!!!
Anyway to those choosen to represent Penang for it........do your best and make Penang Proud of you.
Xian,10.03AM
come to Penang competing for the MSSM 2011 held at Tanjung Bunga Beach hotel.
Since to introduction of chess into the calender of MSSM penang will be the host for the first time.
Perhaps because of this I wanted to be part of this memorable event.
However days before the final round of MSSPP only did I get to know that what was badly wanted by me
is now all end and over.The cruel blow delivered was rather devastating but what more can I do
besides picking up myself bracing for further challenge.
To blame it on the MSSM committee or any affiliates can just merely lessen your anger but what more than that?
What is deem to be to be fix is fix and no hopes of overturning the decision.Anyway the worst part was that why were we told to pay the MSSM fees where we are not eligible to play.............having a feeling that its a day light robbery!!!!
Anyway to those choosen to represent Penang for it........do your best and make Penang Proud of you.
Xian,10.03AM
Saturday 28 May 2011
Day after exam.
The exam is over but somethings are not over yet.
Mountain of revision awaits me there.to be completed.
Did try my best but once agin was let down but slip work.
Perhaps I place too much emphasis towards certain subject and
and by that I am placed in nowhere.
Overall it was better but not too well......
thus hard work is needed.
For once prove it bah!!!gambateh
Xian,9.38PM
Mountain of revision awaits me there.to be completed.
Did try my best but once agin was let down but slip work.
Perhaps I place too much emphasis towards certain subject and
and by that I am placed in nowhere.
Overall it was better but not too well......
thus hard work is needed.
For once prove it bah!!!gambateh
Xian,9.38PM
Monday 16 May 2011
New begin.
My previous blog would no longer being used.
The reason?that blog really wasn't that nice it use to be after and drastic change.
Perhaps this one would be a new one to allow me to enjoy it.
Thanks anyway for all of your support!!
Xian,11.07pm
The reason?that blog really wasn't that nice it use to be after and drastic change.
Perhaps this one would be a new one to allow me to enjoy it.
Thanks anyway for all of your support!!
Xian,11.07pm
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